July 26, 2016

A Little Message That Couldn't Wait

Seriously. What did I ever do to you...
That makes you think I suck?
That makes you think I can never be successful?
That makes you think that I'm a loser?

Trust me, I know that I've really screwed up. But stop reminding me of who I used to be. I'm going to try to change, I promise. I want to do this for me, definitely not for you. It's my life. Let me take control. 

You're really not helping me. I heard you the first time. Changing myself is going to take time and you're just going to have to accept that. I know you're trying to get me to change, and I really appreciate that, it's just that I can only be the one who gets me to change. 

I know you think that I'm just trying to ignore you, but that is far from the truth. I want to change so much, I want to be successful, I don't want to be a loser. I think about this all the time, it really drives me insane sometimes. But, that is how badly I want this. 

Please, all I need right now is to believe in myself. Every time you remind me of my past, it is an obstacle that prevents me from ever getting to my future. I just need the support, it really means the world to me. I just got to keep going, keep trying, and keep attempting to change myself. 

Just one question, do you think that because I screwed up, that I can't get back to where I used to be and perform even better? Why is this the last of me? Why was my past the peak in this lifetime? Everyone falls down, you say, so why can't I? Was my mistake so big that I don't deserve to see success at all? Well, I guess you are allowed to make your own opinions. 

But, if I were you and I really cared about the well being of my friend/family member, I would really build them up. I'd make them feel that they can put their mind to anything and accomplish it all. I'd appreciate them and make sure they know that I am never going to completely give up on them. I'd give them the confidence to get over their fear of failure and finally improve. They would have my complete and utter support to be able to fall and get right back up. They would be able to realize that the secret to success comes mainly from extreme preparation and belief in themselves. They would realize that there had just been some subconscious and hidden potential that was just eager to be discovered. They would be able to tap into that "zone" and just give it their all in every circumstance. After all, what do they really have to lose? What's the worst that could happen?

-N

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